My Ambition

They ask what is my ambition?

I ever thought of being a lawyer or a doctor or specialist something like that because they say these jobs, the income is high. 

I ever thought of being a teacher because being a teacher has a stable income.

I ever thought of being a businesswoman because I think I watch too many dramas.

I ever thought of being a soldier because I like to play guns and rifles.

But after more than 10 years of thinking, at the age of 16, I set down my main option for my ambition - a psychologist. 

Dream of being a psychologist is not about the income (though it's a few hundred bucks for just an hour), it's not a stable work though, it's not from the drama or anything either. It's from my heart, a true heart to help those who are in need. I don't am I capable to afford this job but I have a strong heart to go for it. 

I'm a kind of person who like to see everyone in the world smile. Maybe I had cried and scream and shout and being mad for the past of my life, that is why I want everyone to be happy. I like to sacrifice myself for people's happiness. And most of all, I want people to know about how to live up a life and make the world peace.

I like to help my friends who are under depressions, I like to listen to my friends who are so frustrating, I like to share my shoulders or my hugs to my friends when they cry, I like to give a long talk to chill them up. I don't like siding anyone. I always side the right side which I think it's right. Solving problems between each other is one of my favourite things to do too. I might not be happy always, I always suffer in depression either, but I don't care about myself, I think about my family and friends first, always. 

Why? Why I keep on thinking about the others more than myself? Because my life was build up and strengthen by them. They support me to live til now. Every time I fall, they lend a hand to me and pull me up. That's why, I want to use my hand to pull up as much people as I can and that is why, I want to be a psychologist. 

"The happiness of our life depends on the quality of our thoughts" 

SAMURA namamu sentiasa terjulang

story of how I'm in this school I hope it's clear in the previous post...
some information of me in this school..

Name: Tong Tian Qian
Known as: Tong
Register name: Laura
Class: 4 Jaya (Jayaventador)
Dorm: Budiman 7
House: Budiman (Green)

Wondering something? Register name is a legacy in SAMURA. Simple explanation, our bed is double decker. Each double decker, Form 5 down, Form 4 up. So Form 5 will be 'kakak' to the 'adik'. Each double decker, there's a legacy name and mine is '-ra' at the back..well unfotunately, i have no 'kakak' because she left last year, so my super senior - Siara left the name 'Laura' for me..Laura, it's a great name I think :) 
Simply introduce my dorm mates (6 Form 5 and 8 Form 4)
Starting with Kak Mimi (Registered as Jueju), Kak Aimi (Registered as Sharlie), Kak Nissa (Registered as Ochey), Kak Kun (Registered as Momochan), Kak Fairuz(transfered), Kak Yana(Oneil), then E.T. (Registered as Juewita), Nissa (Registered as Norelle), Anis (Registered as Kellie), Saira (Registered as Orched), Aisyah (Registered as Picoe), Lubna(Registered as Herby/Lubby), Iqa(Registered as Pearl)....

Followed by my classmates...
Mat(Registered as Doni)as KT, Nadiah as PKT, - (Nemo transferred) as SU, Nadhrah as Treasurer, Aidil(Registered as Alan) as Keber, Hanisah as Kecer, Qayyum as 3K (Keselamatan, Kesihatan and Kebajikan)..and others were Keppa, Farhana, E.T., Wani, Ju, Nabihah, Ainaa, Sathifah, Hidayah, Maz, Hanis, Aiman and Edward.

Well peoples here are quite friendly..I hope this last long..may God bless my 2 years in SAMURA will go smoothly :D

Stupid Fate

16th January...a bright and shiny day but my world goes stormy when the SBP results came out...
6 a.m.
Me: They say SBP results will be out by today. Later after you check on internet, let me know at the first time. Please and thank you..
8 a.m.
Mum: TAHNIAH! SMS MUAR

dafuq...66 SBP but why SAMURA? Why with Sya2? Dahlah baru start touching masa tu...I'm so frust, I don't want to believe it...until Syafiq shared his 3G and Fatin Nabila help me to check on the website..the results shown that yes...I GOT SAMURA! ahhh don't talk about my expression that moment..it was like damn embarrassing hahaha..I shout and bang the wall and cried, idiotically lol xD what a shame! For that few days, I didn't have my meal actually until my gastric returns only I eat..I told Kak Long and Tasha to help me to think of some way..lalallalalalalala very long stories...

29th January 10 a.m.
I'm there in SMS Muar (SAMURA). I registered as I were ask to do that so. Somehow, I were cheated by this anonymous -,- After I registered, Tasha's mum called. She told me one of the teacher-in-charge in SMSS will contact me and yes, he did. He told me not to register first (which I already did). Fuq is the word I say that time. Why don't he contact me earlier? Why not? Why I have the initiative to register at first? Why there's an anonymous who ask me to register? Why am I so stupid? Why SAMURA took me? A thousands of WHYS! 

Lastly, I concluded it as 'FATE' a STUPID FATE.

Yeah, they are right.
'When the God had gave you a lot of things you want, It will sure take away something you want in return.'
'Don't expect for something just because of some reason and try to accept what you got and being appreciative.'
'Maybe the God had made a better choice for you, you never know.'
'Behind every incident, there's a reason.'
'Destiny, is the bridge you build for the one you love.'

I really wanna thank them for helping me and giving me guidance in my life..
Kak Long / Tasha / Lily / Yamaz / Tasha's parents