PMR PMR PMR

9 of September, I have my one and only PMR at SMK Convent Bukit Nanas, Kuala Lumpur.
I have not work hard for that I guess, neither do my best, but this exam, means too much, too much to me...
19 of December, (hopefully) the results will be coming out...
2012, AYSKL comfirmed to be demolish by year 2013. As an astopunks, my future is blank. And so, SMSS is the only school I applied for. It's my one and only option. It's an SBP. Straight A's are needed.
PMR 2012 means too much for me. My mum said she can imagine how sad I'll be if I didn't get straight A's. I say I can even imagine myself committing suicide if I don't get straight A's. That's how serious it is. I'm my mum's one and only daughter, the last one to protect her pride and my own pride. SMSS is my one and only hope, I have to make into it. Though Uncle Nadzim is willing to help me but still, who wants a player without a good results? If I don't get straight A's, I'll make a lot of people fed up. I don't like it. I'm more willing to death than looking at their disappointed face. Anyway, I'm those 'kiasu' type person. Competitive, yet love to be at the top. I can't afford if I'm weaker than anyone else.
Besides of everything, if I can't make it to SMSS, it will be one of my failure....
Why I want to be in SMSS so badly?

1. I can still meet back my beloved CBNHT in future :D
2. I can still see my baby daughter always :D
3. Nana is in there with me :D and Abang Faez was there too :)
4. It's easier for me to meet back all my pigs and I can go to Kelly's house :D
5. I really love KL so much.
6. I want to use the name of SMSS and beat Titans down!!! 
7. etc etc etc .....

Skypeeee~

My Skype, in the past, was only used to Skype with my aunties at USA but now, they all have their own kid to take care, we seldom chat on Skype any more... but at the end year of 2012, my baby daughter made me activate my Skype again :D we first Skype was because sharing each other playing piano but now, we often Skype just to stay up 'teman' each other throughout the whole midnight xD lol ... well now is 2.30 a.m. 22/11/2012, Tasha is sick so I'm trying to make her sleep by putting some songs for her. I think she's asleep now xD but it sokay, I'm working on something and I'm not working tomorrow, so yeah...last night, 21/11/2012, I made her look at me sleeping until 5.30 so 2.30 is just nothing xD well I don't mind anything as long as she sleep well :) now.........still on skype xD

''friends I know, add me if you want... ( zztongzz-6736) cute name right? I know XD

bye everyone :3

CBN, CBNers, the shining star of my life!

KL to me is somehow, like a stranger, I never know KL real well before I'm here...

2010, 

I think I made a smart decision, I move into AYSKL, study in CBN. CBN is seriously an extraordinary school, I can't say it's perfect, neither good enough. The school is small, often power failure, monkeys wondering around the school(most of the girls will scream and shouts, of course), there's bats and its poopoo, foxes will also shit around the school at night, the toilet is not always clean, the canteen food is so expensive etc etc etc, but I still in love with this school, due to the awesome teachers and friends in school. 

Students from CBN, they know how to be appreciative, and being so redah to what the God has given to us. Believe it or not, with the small field we have in school, with limited spaces, we train so hard and we ever got champion in athletics, hockey, gymnastic, ping pong, archery, chess etc, we even beat KL Sports School in hockey, and that makes me realise, to achieve something, it's not about the spaces, facilities, surroundings, it's about us, the passion in us, and the effort and commitment we gave. CBNers are mostly well-talented, we are gifted with different potential, we are the Choir Champion Holder, our Choral Speaking is the best in Keramat either. Our band is awesome, same goes to our Bicara Berirama. SEA Forensics CBN participated, we even won. Public speaking we have someone to represent too. Drama, we even won the champion. And even if we're not the champion, we are always in the top ranking. When you stop at here, you will think that, whoah, CBN is so good in co-curriculur! but will think how many tears, bloods we drop for everything we achieve? How many efforts, commitment, time we have put into? And yet, in CBN,  you have to be mostly all-rounded because you have to do well in your academics. Me, as a school hockey player, repeat what my coach said to the team 'No matter how good you can play, studies always come first, if you don't want to study, I'll kick you out of the team.'. With this one sentence, it proves everything. 

Friends in CBN, I can say, they are the craziest human I ever met. You often heard peoples scream and shouts, talking loud, singing all around, running around the school, group-by-group gossiping, going everywhere after school instead of going back home, you expect them to be like a bitch but they're not. Those mostly are good students. Idk, I just think that they're awesome. And in CBN, honestly, we respects our sisters-somehow, not every sister-and our younger sisters respect us-not everyone either. 

In CBN, I found my most precious sister, my bby daughter, my awesome friends, my superb team mates, my swagging juniors...oh gosh! I really don't want to leave CBN...but what to do? My life is written by the God. 

Dear CBNers,

If  you read this, I just wanna say, YOU ARE AWESOME! Don't expect what the school can give you, expect what you can give to the school, and expect what miracles or legend you can make for the school. May God bless all of you! 

A big leap because of a challenge!

Walawei....berhabuk gile blogger aku xD credit to the dear PMR :P
PMR...2 years, I take things for granted, I never take PNP session that serious, until I form 3, the same thing is still going on...start from January 2012, it is really hard to see my face exist in the class during PNP as I keep on representing the school for sports..January-Jun, badminton zon level, ping pong zon level, olahraga zon level, followed up by state level for 3 of these sports. After that, Hoki zon and state level. Everything goes on until July, I came back to school...Hello, what do you expect a kid to get A when almost half a year she was absent to school?? And so, my trial I only got 2A ._. 4B2C (Hi C, long time no see, but I don't really hope to SEE you in my PMR results, thank you, I hate you) After trial, there's Gerak Gempur 1, Gerak Gempur 2, Gerak Gempur 3, Pecutan PMR, almost everyday ._. mmg everyday pun!! But still, a month before PMR, I absent to represent the school for Hockey Premier League. 2 weeks before PMR, I absent AGAIN ._. for Hockey Premier League National level..booyeah!! How awesome am I :P

Then, I saw the calender..PMR is counting down to 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0 .... my heart started to pound...I'm afraid of a lot of things...but now, I don't really mind about how many A's I get, because I leaped a big step after plenty of motivation. It should be a motivation for PMR, but I eventually took it as a motivation for my life. I have nothing to regret if I failed to get straight As for the exam.

The Friday before the week of PMR, I started to cry..should be, too many sins I have made for these long period. Aku masuk bilik guru, salam guru-guru. Cikgu yang tak ajar aku tu, okay la macam biasa aje, when it comes to those teachers who taught me when I'm in form 1, form 2 and form 3, my tears started to flow. Since form 1, I slept in the class, I seldom hand in my homework, I make a lot of noise in the class...when I exist during PNP. Masa I salam cikgu, saat itu lah air mata aku mengalir, tak tahu apahal touching smcm, ag2 bile cikgu kte: 'Alaa tong, jangan nangis, cikgu dah lama dah maafkan awak, takyah sedih2, awak boleh buat punye.' etc... orang sbyk dosa aku ni, kenapa la cikgu semua baik sangat T.T Btw, on that Friday gak I hugged my dear daughter :3 hehehehe....she's so sweet :D

Sunday morning, we have motivation by Abang Razali, we called him Abang Li. He hit my head with his words, though it's so 'islam' type punye motivation, tp since die tak gune bahasa Arab, I can still understand what he said. It's all about believes in God and love to our parents. After the motivation, my mum came to pick me up to get my stationaries with my father. We went for a lunch bla bla bla and we have a fight because when we went to the center of the city, jam teruk gila, my father lost his temper..so yeah, a fight in the car. I cried at the back of the car because I expect it will be a happy day and never expect I menyusahkan mereka :( when I reach my hostel, I cheated my mum to make her come down from the car, and when she's going back into the car.....emmmmm...I hugged her -///- it's the first time in my life...I swear :') and I hugged my dad too...first time either :P One of the big step I leap. I drop all my egos...

Monday night, I texted Adeana because I feel real bad for ignoring her last year, I just don't want to build up a wall between us like I did between Saq. Instead of taking her as my petsis, I prefer to be her friend more. I try to ignore and not to believe what her friends told me - she admire I. Last year we were just fine, but when it comes to this year, we turn into strangers ._. expected somehow because my ego is high! Well what to do :P and yeah, I called my aunt..the dialog is P and C xP

Conclusion, I drop all my egos because of PMR and I feel so relief because I never did all those things in my whole life. I feel so free now :) Forever I'll remember PMR, not because what I did during the exam or what I get after the exam but the leap I took in my life before the exam. PMR is a challenge and a challenge really turns someone into a more mature person, I believe in that! Thank you God, I know what you mean now :) not everyone can get As in PMR, but even less people can go through what I did than getting straight As.. I redha..I already get what I really want :')

Heroin

She's my heroin. She's always there for me. The reason I can fly so far, is all because of her. Without her, there's no me.
 Mum,
 is the most precious thing the God gave us.
Without mum, there's no us.
Mum,
 we are from you,
you carry us for nine months,
without complains.
 When we are born,
 you raise us up, without a word.
 Mum, you pay everything for me,
you do everything for me,
you taught me how to fly,
 the way to fly,
and you let me fly.
But when there's thunder,
 when there's rain,
 when the storm had just came,
 you will always be there to bring me back home,
I fell, you came,
you taught from the start again.
But what I did was taking things for granted,
Mum,
sorry for the fault I made,
sorry if I put you insane.
Sorry letting your tears drop,
sorry for the sacrifices.
Thank you for being my mother,
you are the most precious thing ever,
I never have walk this far,
if you're not there for me.
Thank you, mum!
Written by, Tong

Sad day for her.

6th of June. 2012, not a good day for my dear Iman-Iman Camelia Omar-one of my really best friend since form 1... everything is just fine in the morning..we've our training like usual, she still has her cute and sweet smile on her face, nothing's wierd... at night, I received a message from Yamaz, I don't believe it at first...but yet, the fact force me to accept it... "Innalillahwainnailaihirojiun. Please be inform that iman's father passed away this evening" ..I STUNTED for a moment, I don't know what to do..when I'm back to the reality, I almost cried..I quickly get my phone and called her..I'm NERVOUS! "Hello iman.." "sob,sob,sob...ye..sob,sob" yada yada yada...she's crying..I don't know..I seldom see Iman or hear her crying..I don't know what to say..I heard her sobbing, I'm touched too, and I cried..It's the first time my friend's-best friend especially-family passed away, and the one is what we used to say-the family supporter, her dad. The saddest part is, she's going to face her PMR this year, same goes to her brother who is sitting for SPM this year, and the inter-zon hockey tournament is just around the corner too..I'm worried about her. I worry that how she's going to get her mood back to study? how she's going to focus in the game? What I concerned the most is, will the cute smile still hang on her face after this? I don't know, I'll try my best to help her, dari segi semangat mahupun kewangan-if I manage to help her.. Iman, is well-known a sweet and nice girl, always stay cute, friendly, helpful, sociable, great to friends, I've never regret have a friend like her. Why the God wants her to suffer in this hard moment? Why is she suffer in this pain? I can't judge the God, everything is already a fact since the world is created but why she? I don't know. Why she? To Iman's dad, Uncle Omar, who I never met before, Uncle, you may not know me, and I only know you as Iman's dad. I don't know what had happened and what are Uncle suffering, I'm really sorry to hear that you are no more with your family. You are up there right? You can see Iman crying? Uncle, you are very lucky to have this good daughter :) You sure sad that you can't be with her forever right? However, at here, I hope you can rest in peace in the heaven, the pain is over, and may you protect Iman and keep her spirit strong :) Uncle, no worries, Iman has plenty of good friends, we'll help her. All the best to you up there Uncle. I'll be there for her, I'll try to help her go through all this, and she has a family of hockey to support her, you can go peacefully :) May God bless you up there :)Sincerely, Tong-one of Iman's team mates, school mates. (I'm sure you can here me right up)

Love Story.

Love, is a battlefield. Every single relationship is a war. The one you love is your kingdom. To own a love, you have to step in to the battlefield, to get a relationship, you have to fight in the war, and protect your kingdom. Never give up in love, because you'll dead without realising how. Don't sympathy your enemy in every relationship because they might kill you. Protect your kingdom and never let anyone goes into it. When you lost your kingdom, it means that you lost your relationship. When you lost your relationship, it means you're a loser in love. But remember, when you lost in a war, always stand up, get yourself well-prepared before stepping into another battlefield and when you lost your kingdom, you can choose whether to fight back or build a new one. Love story, is all about, fights, protection, lose, lost, and the effort you give to get the love you deserved until the end of your life.

The End, Thank You :D

Dah Basi?

Aloha! my friends xD

alamak ai. dah lama tak blogging lak. 

what if this is a food? DAH LAMA DAH BASI xDDD

CNY? oh ya CNY! tak nk cter pasal CNY dulu la....

Let's talk about AYSKL's choral speaking for AKP YS 2010 xDDD 

First of all.......sabar la...tgk gmbr lu.....

whoa! ya, this is us. those who practice choral speaking in our midnight, destroying beautiful dreams of those who are sleeping. hahha. no la. jk. erm, with full of proud i say, i'm the first one who finish memorize the script among all of them! Cheer for CBN xD there is laughter, joy, tears and anger of coz in all this time. but our hardwork pays :DDDD

and the last rehearsal for AKP.......

we didn't finish it perfectly. everything is going to fast and not clear at all. we are all having big trouble. there is no more time for us to practice more. everyone started to panic.......but.....

The Real AKP YS 2010, dipersilakan pasukan Choral Speaking dari AYSKL...........

we give all of our effort in it. we do our best. we show what we have practice for this long time. we didn't waste the hardwork our seniors pay for us. and we end up a perfect show with a big round of applause. I really enjoy it. 

hahhaks. show u our seniors :DDDD

Muhammad Dzulhilmi Immeran aka Abg Imm
our conductor :D

Nurul Nadhirah aka Kak Nadhi.
The one who sakit atiy sakit jiwa every night teaching us . To me, she's the one who deserve the praises.

Iman Qush aka Abg Curve.
Kak Nadhi's helper. Full with face expressions. Well talented xD

Ahmad Ashraf aka Abg Ash
The king of ATDI we can say. he controls the boys. strict in time or i mean SCARY!

other than that, there's is Kak Balqis, Kak Najwa, Kak Ain Kamal, Kak Ain Najihah,  Kak Su, Kak Fatin Nabila....etc. almost all form 5 ATPN come to support us every night. awwhh. love u all akak2 sekalian.

and from ATDI, Abg Nazmi aka Abang Ku Sayang xDD, Abg Adib.......and Ex-ATDI, Cikgu Saiful who come every night to help us :DDD 

okay. I'm testing myself. see whether can I remember all the choral speakers xDDD

Farah, Fyza, Fina, Sofea, Firdaus, Rhema, Dash, Ezreen, Ila, Sara, Shimut, Feeqa, Zur' Ain, Najwa, Ain Nazeera, Teng, Syahir, Pichi, Syuk, Hasif, Diyah, Me, Iffah, Intan, Alam, Naim, Ammar Shark, Put, Dini, Aisha, Dayah, Daliela, Wafiy, Shammir and Ammar Shabil.

Ya, that's us. :DD

The end thank you. What a long lame story xD but it's meaningful to us :DDDDD