Walawei....berhabuk gile blogger aku xD credit to the dear PMR :P
PMR...2 years, I take things for granted, I never take PNP session that serious, until I form 3, the same thing is still going on...start from January 2012, it is really hard to see my face exist in the class during PNP as I keep on representing the school for sports..January-Jun, badminton zon level, ping pong zon level, olahraga zon level, followed up by state level for 3 of these sports. After that, Hoki zon and state level. Everything goes on until July, I came back to school...Hello, what do you expect a kid to get A when almost half a year she was absent to school?? And so, my trial I only got 2A ._. 4B2C (Hi C, long time no see, but I don't really hope to SEE you in my PMR results, thank you, I hate you) After trial, there's Gerak Gempur 1, Gerak Gempur 2, Gerak Gempur 3, Pecutan PMR, almost everyday ._. mmg everyday pun!! But still, a month before PMR, I absent to represent the school for Hockey Premier League. 2 weeks before PMR, I absent AGAIN ._. for Hockey Premier League National level..booyeah!! How awesome am I :P
Then, I saw the calender..PMR is counting down to 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0 .... my heart started to pound...I'm afraid of a lot of things...but now, I don't really mind about how many A's I get, because I leaped a big step after plenty of motivation. It should be a motivation for PMR, but I eventually took it as a motivation for my life. I have nothing to regret if I failed to get straight As for the exam.
The Friday before the week of PMR, I started to cry..should be, too many sins I have made for these long period. Aku masuk bilik guru, salam guru-guru. Cikgu yang tak ajar aku tu, okay la macam biasa aje, when it comes to those teachers who taught me when I'm in form 1, form 2 and form 3, my tears started to flow. Since form 1, I slept in the class, I seldom hand in my homework, I make a lot of noise in the class...when I exist during PNP. Masa I salam cikgu, saat itu lah air mata aku mengalir, tak tahu apahal touching smcm, ag2 bile cikgu kte: 'Alaa tong, jangan nangis, cikgu dah lama dah maafkan awak, takyah sedih2, awak boleh buat punye.' etc... orang sbyk dosa aku ni, kenapa la cikgu semua baik sangat T.T Btw, on that Friday gak I hugged my dear daughter :3 hehehehe....she's so sweet :D
Sunday morning, we have motivation by Abang Razali, we called him Abang Li. He hit my head with his words, though it's so 'islam' type punye motivation, tp since die tak gune bahasa Arab, I can still understand what he said. It's all about believes in God and love to our parents. After the motivation, my mum came to pick me up to get my stationaries with my father. We went for a lunch bla bla bla and we have a fight because when we went to the center of the city, jam teruk gila, my father lost his temper..so yeah, a fight in the car. I cried at the back of the car because I expect it will be a happy day and never expect I menyusahkan mereka :( when I reach my hostel, I cheated my mum to make her come down from the car, and when she's going back into the car.....emmmmm...I hugged her -///- it's the first time in my life...I swear :') and I hugged my dad too...first time either :P One of the big step I leap. I drop all my egos...
Monday night, I texted Adeana because I feel real bad for ignoring her last year, I just don't want to build up a wall between us like I did between Saq. Instead of taking her as my petsis, I prefer to be her friend more. I try to ignore and not to believe what her friends told me - she admire I. Last year we were just fine, but when it comes to this year, we turn into strangers ._. expected somehow because my ego is high! Well what to do :P and yeah, I called my aunt..the dialog is P and C xP
Conclusion, I drop all my egos because of PMR and I feel so relief because I never did all those things in my whole life. I feel so free now :) Forever I'll remember PMR, not because what I did during the exam or what I get after the exam but the leap I took in my life before the exam. PMR is a challenge and a challenge really turns someone into a more mature person, I believe in that! Thank you God, I know what you mean now :) not everyone can get As in PMR, but even less people can go through what I did than getting straight As.. I redha..I already get what I really want :')
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