They change me !

They change me !
Who do I mean by they?
How do they change me?
They, are all someone who ever related to me..
related to me? boys? or girls?
Girls ! *eww, WTE?! someone might ask 'are you a tut~' (i hate that word fucking damn much, keep it away from me)?
They aren't anybody, they are just my 'petsister'? No!
*til here, I guess you'll maybe think that 'what the eff shit she's talking about', right?
....
Year 2010, i have my first petsister, her name.....Private and confidential la...but I can only let you know she's in the same hostel with me, and she's in the same school now with me too..luckily, she's in morning session, if not, awkward occurs...haih..she's the first...that time, I'm some kind of desperate, in another meaning, is faithful..who says only boy/girlfriend only can be faithful? for me, no matter what decision we made, we must faithful to it, pay our best to it...oops, out of topic, back to it..well, faithful...but what I'm get from her, is unfaithful..and sorry to her, I decide to break up...I don't want to waste my time anymore..and after that...I change into someone who is UNFAITHFUL !! *not actually unfaithful, but just wanna own what I want (a younger sister who can ever be by my side sharing and caring)..once i own, like what I said, I'll pay my best !!

Year 2011, I owned three petsister, one is form 4 cbn, another two...Form 1...who ever know me, you know me, and you know them..they are the two that i love the most (as a petsister)..but now, i left one..Shu Xuen...haha, and both of them, are those I mean by 'changing me'..because of they, i know that, we should be faithful..being unfaithful, need to undertake the consequences..I ever owned both, but now, I feel like I'm losing both of them although Shu Xuen is still current...I hurt Shu Xuen without conscious...is she mad at me? if ya, what can i do more? as I don't know do we have the fate to meet each other in the future..if you don't know, you'll will sure curios, what I did to hurt Shu Xuen..well, the presence of my last petsister and she's an ex just do it..I'm not mad at anyone, but myself...I'm the one who think from the butt...now, I've paid my consequences being unfatiful and ya, now, I'm faithful to both of my current petsister...Shu Xuen and Kak Long...I just need time to forget the exs...give me some time !! 




I'm sorry to all of you although I know that...
SORRY NO CURE !! 





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